ah, the sweet, sweet taste of indignation

new learning! when i am tired, not only does my patience disappear, but my inhibition follows suit and lemmings away into the aether; that is not an excuse.

so today, i has double plus angry, and due to the above new learning, i showed it. mm, catharsis. i won't elaborate (because most of my readership was there), but some innocents got caught in the crossfire, and they will receive an apology.

another new learning: when double plus angry, i can whip off some very elaborate, biting, scathing, snippy remarks, but i can hold them back by jumping up and down.

earlier in the year, and quite recently, i was and have been thinking about professionalism and how, as a teacher, it will extend outside the school life and how my reputation will have to be held to a higher standard. in the middle of a double plus angry, that is the last thing on my mind. therefore, to maintain self-control, it would be prudent of me to learn to prevent such anger from developing in the first place (bud-nipping); regular angries that i normally just let slide must be piped off periodically, in private, to trusted, non-judgmental ears who will tell me if i'm wrong.

lately, i've been eschewing the high road in conflicts and just letting the bridges burn because i honestly don't want to be bothered with maintaining them anymore. i am not a people-pleasing kiss-up, nor do i subscribe to the chinese notion of face-saving. if it doesn't bother me enough, i'll let it go. if it activates double-plus angry, bridge-burning and snarking, i will show it and then i will bear the consequences of my actions.