16.10.06

Life Theme Porcelain Philosophy 1: Language

this is the first installment of a new series of posts that will track my analyses and comments regarding the themes of the life i perceive around me, inspired by autumn.
this particular post came to me as i attempted to sleep. i got up out of bed to write this down. i lose a lot of sleep this way, but it is better than losing ideas.

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the manner in which we appear and comport ourselves is very telling. if i ask you to list the characteristics of a stereotype, looks and actions comprise much of that list. lower on our radar, but of greater importance is language. how you speak and/or write is a reflection of the way you think. since it is so much easier to speak your mind, your word is gospel to your audience (if you are a liar and they know it, they'll just assume you mean the opposite of what you say, and they'll know what you're thinking anyway). your looks and actions send out visual cues; your words send out audio cues. people are naturally inclined to make their judgments and decisions based on these things (as we are not a sniffing or touching culture -- sort of like dogs).

words are swords; you do not need to be a Biblical scholar (James 3) or english major to realize this. though in themselves they are nothing, when we give words meaning, they become corporeal, tangible somethings. just as there are styles of swords, there are styles of speech and writing. just as each style of sword denotes a particular sophistication or ability, so too does the language you use.

back when we still wore swords at our sides (the men at least; women did not -- and still do not -- have penises, so they weren't allowed to carry phallic weaponry), you could tell the status, rank or level of sophistication of a man by the sword he wore. knights carried heavy broadswords, symbols of their strength and nobility and ability to mash things. Aristocrats and Zorro and Inigo Montoya favoured the nimbler rapier, a more refined weapon without the clunk of a broadsword. samurais, symbols of high culture, lived and died by the katana, elegance and precision personified. petty criminals could usually only afford ugly knives or prison-made skivvs and shanks. the way you write or speak is a window into your mind. assumptions are made here based on audio/visual cues. if you have a vocabulary the length of a crayon and primarily consisting of four-letter words that the MPAA frowns upon, expect to be treated like a petty criminal waving a shard of glass with a duct tape handle.

what type of sword do you carry? do you use it as a weapon for gain, or as a tool and badge of honour? do you write like a tW3Lve y3@r-oLD 0n AzN-aV3nUe?

it would be ironic if there were spelling errors or misused words in this post. if you find one, assume that i am arrogant because i did not care to take the time to check my spelling, and that i am pompous for using big words that i do not know.

13.10.06

pam's new car

we have the same taste in vehicles!

12.10.06

vulnerable like a starfish under a hat

if you don't shake enough, and if your underwear isn't absorbant enough, it will run down your leg a bit.

*****

caffeine before bed will keep you up at night and make you think you should talk to that fetching young lady right away about just how fetching she is. and then you get hit in the face.

*****

for men:
it is okay to cry a) on your wedding day; b) when the leafs win the cup.
it is not okay to cry a) after your wedding night thing (and subsequent things); b) when the leafs don't make the playoffs.

*****

determining your gender:
what is the first thing that comes to mind when you see the word Darcy?

if you said, "Darcy Tucker" you are male.


if you said, "Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice" you are female.


*****

i got an invitation to a company christmas party dinner on november 18 that said my name and 'guest' and it made me want to get a guest to bring with me.

*****

i like reading margaret atwood and alice munro. they are secret windows into the female mind and i'm peeping ^.^
i don't like reading dan brown or about what dan brown wrote. he should be defenestrated.

11.10.06

Toast

Snowman in his tattered sheet sits hunched at the edge of the trees, where grass and vetch and sea grapes merge into sand. Now that it's cooler he feels less dejected. Also, he's hungry. There's something to be said for hunger: at least it lets you know you're still alive.
A breeze riffles the leaves overhead; insects rasp and trill; red light from the setting sun hits the tower blocks in the water, illuminating an unbroken pane here and there, as if a scattering of lamps has been turned on. Several of the buildings once held roof gardens, and now they're top-heavy with overgrown shrubbery. Hundreds of birds are streaming across the sky towards them, roostward bound. Ibis? Herons? The black ones are cormorants, he knows that for sure. They settle down into the darkening foliage, croaking and squabbling. If he ever needs guano he'll know where to find it.
Across the clearing to the south comes a rabbit, hopping, listening, pausing to nibble at the grass with its gigantic teeth, It glows in the dusk, a greenish glow filched from the iridicytes of a deep-sea jellyfish in some long-ago experiment. In the half-light the rabbit looks soft and almost translucent, like a piece of Turkish Delight; as if you could suck off its fur like sugar. Even in Snowman's boyhood there were luminous green rabbits, thouhg they weren't this big and they hadn't yet slipped their cages and bred with the wild population and become a nuisance.
This one has no fear of him, though it fills him with carnivorous desires; he longs to whack it with a rock, tear it apart with his bare hands, then cram it into his mouth, fur and all. But rabbits belong to the Children of Oryx and are sacred to Oryx herself, and it would be a bad idea to offend the women.
It's his own fault. He must have been stupefied with drink when he was laying down the laws. He should have made rabbits edible, by himself at any rate, but he can't change that now. He can almost hear Oryx, laughing at him with indulgent, faintly malicious delight.
The Children of Oryx, the Children of Crake. He'd had to think of something. Get your story straight, keep it simple, don't falter: this used to be the expert advice given by lawyers to criminals in the dock. Crake made the bones of the Children of Crake out of the coral on the beach, and then he made their flesh out of a mango. But the Children of Oryx hatched out of an egg, a giant egg laid by Oryx herself. Actually she laid two eggs: one full of animals and birds and fish, and the other one full of words. But the egg full of words hatched first, and the Children of Crake had already been created by then, and they'd eaten up all the words because they were hungry, and so there were no words left over when the second egg hatched out. And that is why the animals can't talk.
Internal consistency is best. Snowman learned this earlier in his life, when lying had posed more of challenge for him. Now even when he's caught in a minor contradiction he can make it stick, because these people trust him. He's the only one left who'd known Crake face to face, so he can lay claim to the inside track. Above his head flies the invisible banner of Crakedom, of Crakiness, of Crakehood, hallowing all he does.
The first star appears. "Star light, star bright," he says. Some grade-school teacher. Big-bum Sally. Now close your eyes right up tight. Tighter! Really tight! There! See the wishing star? Now we will all wish for the thing we want the very, very most of all in the whole wide world. But shhh--don't tell anyone, or the wish won't come true!
Snowman screws his eyes shut, pushes his fists into them, clenches his entire face. There's the wishing star all right: it's blue. "I wish I may, I wish I might," he says. "Have the wish I wish to tonight."
Fat chance.

"Oh Snowman, why are you talking to no one?" says a voice. Snowman opens his eyes: three of the older children are standing just out of reach, regarding him with interest. They must have crept up on him in the dark.
"I'm talking to Crake," he says.
"But you talk to Crake through your shiny thing! Is it broken?"
Snowman lifts his left arm, holds out his watch. "This is for listening to Crake Talking to him is different."
"Why are you talking to him about stars? What are you telling to Crake, oh Snowman?"
What indeed? thinks Snowman. When dealing with indigenous peoples, says the book in his head--a more modern book this time, late twentieth century, the voice a confident female's--you must attempt to respect their traditions and confine your explanations to simple concepts that can be understood within the contexts of their belief systems. Some earnest aid worker in a khaki jungle outfit, with netting under the arms and a hundred pockets. Condescending self-righteous cow, thinks she's got all the answers. He'd know girls like that at college. If she were here she'd need a whole new take on indigenous.
"I was telling him," says Snowman, "that you ask too many questions." He holds his watch to his ear. "And he's telling me that if you don't stop doing that, you'll be toast."
"Please, oh Snowman, what is toast?"
Another error, Snowman thinks. He should avoid arcane metaphors. "Toast," he says, "is something very, very bad. It's so bad I can't even describe it. Now it's your bedtime. Go away."

"What is toast?" says Snowman to himself, once they've run off. Toast is when you take a piece of bread--What is bread? Bread is when you take some flour--What is flour? We'll skip that part, it's too complicated. Bread is something you can eat, made from a ground-up plant and shaped like a stone. You cook it... Please, why do you cook it? Why don't you just eat the plant? Never mind that part--Pay attention. You cook it, and then you cut it into slices, and you put a slice into a toaster, which is a metal box that heats up with electricity--What is electricity? Don't worry about that. While the slice is in the toaster, you get out the butter--butter is a yellow grease, made form the mammary glands of--skip the butter. So, the toaster turns the slice of bread black on both sides with smoke coming out, and then this "toaster" shoots the slice up into the air, and it falls onto the floor...
"Forget it," says Snowman. "Let's try again." Toast was a pointless invention from the Dark Ages. Toast was an implement of torture that caused all those subjected to it to regurgitate in verbal form the sins and crimes of their past lives. Toast was a ritual item devoured by fetishists in the belief that it would enhance their kinetic and sexual powers. Toast cannot be explained by any rational means.
Toast is me.
I am toast.


Oryx and Crake, Margaret Atwood

8.10.06

autumn

i try not to play favourites, but i think autumn is becoming one of my favourite seasons, even though it is the season of waning life; proceeding the high and glorious summer; preceding the austere and deathly winter; opposite the verdant and fertile spring.

this year, i noticed the foliage a bit more than usual as they transitioned from greens to a supernova of reds and yellows, soon to degrade to purples and browns. there is something vaguely heroic about going out in a flourish of colour. mortality is best confronted behind a veil of tropes.

every narrative -- correction: successful narrative -- is imbued with the cyclical narrative of the seasons. case in point, the generic romantic comedy is comprised of four plot intervals: the incidental meeting, the burgeoning relationship, the catastrophic conflict, and finally the speech that resolves their rift, leading to happily ever after. it is named a comedy not for its humour, but for the resolution wrought by conflict and catharsis (remember how every Shakespearean comedy ended in marriage?).

of course there are other powerful narratives, such as the bildungsroman (the coming-of-age tale), or the Aristotelian Tragedy (similar to comedy, except everyone dies). every once in awhile we find ourselves in the middle of a narrative that has been played out countless times before by people all around us, and the people that came before us.

i am figuring out what story i am part of. there is no better time to do it than when the trees are bare and all the branching connections can be traced; before the snow sets in and covers it all up.

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